So many lovely things!
Feb. 12th, 2026 04:04 pm Here's a list of lovely things in my life right now:
- Job: I had a second-round interview for a job yesterday, and I think it went really well! I both desperately need and want a new job (the City of Boston ended my contract with about a week's notice due to budgets, but even despite that, I've been underemployed since I left Harvard, two years ago). This would be a job that I'd be very good at, that I'd enjoy (from everything I can tell), and that would be paid very well… the trifecta! I should hear later this week.
- Moving: If I get this job, I have to (and get to) move to NYC. Sister C and I lived in the city together for a decade, as some of you may remember; when we bought a house together in our hometown in CT, we left and moved back to the tiny rural area where we grew up. I've loved living here! I have a beautiful little house, and my mom and siblings are all within a five-to-15 minute drive. I've joined the Fire Department, and a local choir, and am assisting the Registrar of Voters, so I actually know people and have friends here, which has never been true before. I'm not at all relishing the logistics of uprooting my life here and moving back to Manhattan. But: that said! Turns out, when C. and I were living there before, I was pretty severely depressed the whole damn time, in a way which drastically impacted my quality of life. I knew I was depressed at the time, but I didn't know just how much it was constraining me. Now that I'm finally properly medicated, it's remarkable how much energy and enthusiasm and curiosity I feel about life; I'm just happy to be alive these days. So I actually am kind of looking forward to living in the city as the person I am now… I'll probably be much more capable of doing things like going to museums and concerts and the park and dating and… etc. I'm actually super excited.
- Singing: Also if I move to the city I'll try to re-join the excellent choir I sang with before. It's a very high level choir, near professional though it's about half amateurs, and I haven't found anything comparable here in CT. I can't wait.
Speaking of singing—I recently auditioned for a church gig (the freelance singer's bread and butter) and got the job, which is very exciting. The musical director is incredibly well-trained—someone who has actually made music her profession, in a way I haven't actually encountered outside of, like, people who went to Juilliard. During the audition, she stopped me in the middle of singing and basically gave me a mini voice lesson in how to breathe, and the change in my vocal quality and power was immediate. And then today when we were talking about the job, she basically analyzed my voice in a way that I haven't had a teacher do since—oh, college, which was 20 years ago. "You're not a second soprano," she said (which I knew—I just sing sop 2 in my other choir because that's what they need.) "You're a lyric soprano, maybe even a dramatic soprano, and you've got an instrument you're vastly underusing." Which is fascinating to me. Several of the things she's said to me ("You need better breath control," and "Your sight-reading skills are okay but need improvement") are things I'm well aware of, so it makes me inclined to think she may well know what she's talking about. Which. What does this mean for me? I haven't had formal vocal training since—again—college, with the exception of like three voice lessons one summer. I know a lot about music compared to your average person because I love it, and I've sung with a lot of choirs, but compared to professional musicians, I know next to nothing. I don't know why A440 and A415 are different. I don't know what the difference is between Baroque and Romantic music when it comes to performing. I'm a good amateur, and yeah, I get paid for singing, but I'm still just that—a good amateur. It's interesting to contemplate the idea that if I put in the effort I could improve the quality of my voice. To what end, I have no idea—I'm in my 40s, and even if I weren't, being a gigging musician is not the life I want—but then again, why should I know what the end is? I'm looking forward to working with this woman, in other words. It's gonna be an education. - Birds and animals. I've been feeding the birds, and so I have a congregation of wonderful black-jacketed juncos living around me. And since we have two feet of snow on the ground, every time I go outside I see all the wonderful little animal feet-prints. It makes me so happy.